Restless

And I couldn't hold it in anymore, 

as the tears started running on their own. 

And the sobs heaved my heart dry, 

as the pain hit me headlong,

the emotions so strong.

I cried till the night turned over on its back.

I cried till the birds chirped waking up.

I cried till the first rays shone on the lingering droplets from last night.

I cried.

Till my heart was tired.

And the tears dried.

From the lack of more fight.

And I closed my eyes,

To your beautiful memories,

As you smiled right at me,

As we made love gently.

When your lips drank away my needs,

And fingers trailed my skin so preciously.

I cuddled into your endless thoughts,

And slowly,

drifted off restlessly.

I Write

I write,

Not to forget you,

Or to distract me. 

But to spill ink on canvas,

And leave a dark stain,

Of our brief moments together,

When our realities faded,

And our dreams coincided.

And this way,

I would live,

And die,

On these pages,

Of your faded love,

And broken promises,

For eternity to come.

My Book of Poetry

And every second slowed to a standstill,

As you turned away for the last time.

The rain drops stilled to a painful drag,

The breath left me swiftly to die. 

That night I opened the first blank page,

To smear my infinity of tears,

Slash the emptiness with the ink of pain,

Paint the words every soul fears.

Every poetry cried in remorse,

Your betrayal screamed in gothic colors,

Yet I found my peace in this world,

As page after page sewed my broken heart for another.

Dear You

Dear you,

I started with a heavy heart.

Do you remember those pleasant days,

Before we had to depart?

When we stayed up nights together,

Sharing our dreams,

Writing poetries,

And wishing on the shooting stars?

Why then, my dear friend,

Did you stand a wall so high?

Distorting our bond so fine?

Believing we could be way more than just what you and me had always defined?

Oh why? 

Destroyed our friendship with a lie?

Why why?

In despair I resign,

For I lost an important part of my life,

And all I'm doing is crying,

For that one special sign,

That you still didn't mean those three words on the our last night of sunshine.

Never meant them.

Never never meant them.

For I want you back as that friend,

That I had close to my heart,

And to have that never end.

Lovingly always yours,

Your only true friend.

        

 

You Have

Have you become a part of me yet?

Secretly.

For I feel your every heart beat,

Throbbing love through my veins.

For I feel your every breath,

Warming me up in the shivering draft.

Gently.

Have you left your mark on me yet?

For I see the scar on my wrists.

A wound that I feel yet the world doesn't see.

For the pain doesn't seem to heal,

And deepens every passing clock.

Torturing.

Our souls are still entwined,

The shreds holding on in the passing storm.

Have you left yet?

Have you not nowhere to go then?

Then to me you return.

Every time an eternity of heartache ends.

Regret.

Tale of Perfect

Look into my eyes,

Search my soul within the dark core.

A few specks of floating dreams,

A dark ring of infinite beauty.

Drown in the sadness of murk,

A tale as I search for the perfect man.

For who makes me the better of myself,

That who shows my self worth with no effort.

That who loves with no flaunt,

For that who rains flowers with no clouds.

For him who creases a golden smile of reassurance,

For him who smells an aura of comfort.

For that which I slide towards content days,

And for which I snuggle in warm long nights.

Drown in my dark pools of want,

In which he doesn't mind being all day long. 

And watch me reflect,

The stars in my eyes.

Search the dark forest of autumn leaves,

For that one bright Ray of sunlight,

For that Ray that had warmed my heart,

For that Ray which brightened the coldest corners.

In a matter of second,

Live an infinity of fairytale.

A prince for his princess,

A prince for his princess.

The dream of a teenager,

That she never outgrew.

Because no matter how many stories of brutality her eyes sought,

It never gave up on that one story of perfect true love.

That one perfect true love.

 

Echo

Grace 

Intelligence

Heat

Passion

I love you. 

Don't suppress.

Don't lie to yourself.

Bellisimo

I need you.

I love you.

Slight Connection

Intense Fascination

Fire 

In your voice.

I love you.

Affair

Friends

Strangers

Grey option

I love you.

Once

Every day.

I have,

No nights.

I love you.

Stand close

Orange sun 

Solitary

Kiss

I love you.

Will you?

Are you? 

Answer me.

You want me.

I love you. 

Ticking clock

Resonating silence

Endless echo

I love you.

Your Words

I look over the horizon,

The sun setting in it's glorious light. 

It reminds me of you,

Looking back at me with anger in your eyes.

Just as red as this sunset,

Just as warm as this summer breeze could get. 

How should I move on from you?

When I can still feel this connection between us two.

I'm holding on to a fantasy,

My sweet getaway in the face of this loathed reality.

But maybe it's not you, 

Just the thought of you that holds me back.

Holds me to your sensual words,

That were uttered in the light of emotions gone wreck.

Do you ever think of me as much?

Do you ever yearn the quick drop in heartbeat with a single touch?

It's not over yet,

Your words still haunt me when the night is dead.

Death

Silence,

Deafening.

Can't hear you no more,

Can't feel my soul no more.

If only you had known,

What you have become to me,

Not a passing phase,

Not even a forgotten moment, 

But a part of me.

With you I felt myself come back to life,

When dead feelings suddenly revived,

When songs sounded sweeter,

The flowers so much more brighter.

When fantasies tumbled over one another,

When my hands never stopped writing.

You gave me life once more,

Let me breathe once again.

But just then you slammed a wall between us,

Can't reach you no more.

Can't feel you no more.

Do you not see the panic in my eyes?

Don't leave me to wither alone,

Don't let go just yet.

If only I could scratch this wall away,

But nothing seems to shake it.

And I slide down helpless,

I'm losing blood,

My skin is yellowing.

You took it away before I could have it.

And all you left me with are lies.

Broken promises and more lies.

Let me die in peace now, 

Not even my corpse deserves you anymore.

Soulmate

Someone like you comes around so rare,

Makes my heart burn with just one stare,

I lose courage to look you in the face,

If I do, your lips are all I taste,

Just a wish to hold you around the waist,

Just a dream to never waste,

A moment not drowning in your beautiful eyes,

A second not feeling my heart race wild,

Why do I connect with you like no other?

Why does it feel so good that it would have never worked with another?

My imagination runs wild with thoughts of laying with you,

Whispering sweet noises in your soft ears,

Finally I've found someone who hears,

Not from the ear, but from the heart 

If I lost you I'd surely fall apart

Into the abyss without my soul,

Blackened heart, darkened to coal,

Unless you stay to keep the fire alive,

Without oxygen, fire cannot thrive.  

-SH

Falling I am, 

Lost my soul I have.

When did that oxygen run out?

When did this fire die out?

You promised to keep me afloat,

But you pushed me down with all your might so.

Are you running away from your needs?

Or pushing me out cuz I don't deserve you to me?

We did connect like we never did with another,

Yet it never was enough to keep going forever.

I miss you.

I may even have been with you.

But somehow, somewhere I lost you.

And now I'm falling in that deep abyss,

With nothing but broken pieces of my heart a miss.

So waste away your wishes and dreams,

Cuz it was all a lie, a bunch of empty promises.

Yet your sweet words still echo,

Bringing memories of not so long ago. 

And I can't let go,

Cuz you showed me what this world could never show.

I made your heart run wild,

I made your imagination bloom far and wide. 

Look back and realize,

What we had was so real and nice.

Come back,

Just once and I'll never let it go off track.

Cuz No matter how hard I try,

I just can't let go.

Can't let go of you.

 

Belief

A land so barren,

As leaves flicker in the dry breeze.

The sun beats down with all might,

The flowers burnt down into the ground.

The sand sifts lazily,

The crystals shining right back into the turquoise sky.

But a cloud drifts in slowly,

Unsure,

Uncertain.

Is this the right place?

How dry, how sad.

Maybe a single drop of water. 

It falls to the ground and lingers for a second,

Before it is hungrily absorbed by the deprived land.

Maybe two more,

And they disappear just as fast.

Maybe I can bring life back.

Maybe I can be god.

And it bursts into torrential rain.

As lightning strikes and thunder claps,

The hungry land drinks in every drop that lands on it's dried surface,

The leaves blow along the deafening  winds, 

Raindrops sliding down it's smooth surface.

Flowers burst into colors,

As the land revives slowly.

As it's soul returns back.

And just as that it turns up to the cloud,

With color and laughter.

With that twinkle of a belief.

God exists.

Suffocation

Closing around me so tight

Squeezing the life out of me

Let me breathe 

That one more inhale of sweet air

Just one more before I go

Impulse causes me to lash out

But all I scratch at is the empty darkness 

My eyes are drifting

My lungs screaming

Just when the last shred of my soul leaves

Someone heaves me up into the warmth

Can't breathe, yet my soul rushes back

The scent is sweet

The embrace so safe

Hold me tight

Hold me right 

And revived me you have

Given me another life

I've indebted my soul to you

My cheeks flush pink

My eyes glaze over

And just as I'm about to kiss

You let go once again

And I'm flying through air

Ready to suffocate again..

<..............>

The tightness around you is the warmth of a blanket,

Caressing your skin, squeezing teasefully,

Let me be your respirator,

If you go, I go with you,

Subdue your impulse and let me be your therapy,

And you'll see the light at the end of the road,

Focus your eyes on my face,

You don't need them to drift anywhere else,

Scream all you want, then watch my thoughts...soothe your throat,

I'll hold your soul to the ground,

Turn around every frown, I won't let you drown,

I'll hold you tight,

I'll hold you right,

Just do one thing for me,

Don't give up this fight!

For I am right beside you,

Even when you feel alone 

Lending a comfortable hand,

Bringing a drop of water in your world of sand,

All you need is a strand,

Of hope,

Reigniting the dreams and passions you had,

Making you realize that wanting your own desires is not bad,

Protecting your deepest thoughts in your mind, 

You an open book, and I your bind.

- Sh

Little Black Box

I'm stuck 

Stuck in this void

I feel trapped 

All emotions trapped in a little black box  

Only my namesis floating around

Subtly

Sparingly

So easy for the world to ridicule

Do they even know what pushed a person to it?

This lust

It's insatiable

A stranger on the outside 

Inside I'm myself 

Eyes are blank

Blind to the obvious 

But memories strewn around

So the secret love affair continues 

I'm comatised in my fantasies

Pink mirage

When rain falls on the girl you're with,
She comes back into her natural state.
No makeup,
No hairdo,
Just pure innocence.
Sparkled eyes...
And when the water runs down the lips,
Which she would tighten every so often to not let the water in,
But gentle enough to pink them up,
And make them soft..
Soft kiss would be a waste...
A light bite on those cotton candied lips,
Let her close her eyes,
For a split second before she opens them again at the bite.
Hands on hips,
And a stroke right there...

So love me all you want,
Kiss me right to the soul...
Show me the need that you have secretly welled up inside you,
So intense,
So craving,
Run your finger down my back,
Lovebite my sweet neck under the beautiful sky,
The raindrops, so cold...
Make me shiver.
That fire in your eyes is burning now,
Innocence overtaken by the heat.
Let your thumb caress my lip...
Let it all become more than a dream...
A fantasy.
A truth.

                                                                                                Inspired by A

I can't Justify

If only I could write a song for you,
with a tip dipped in the emotions of my heart.


If only I could survive a forest with you,
and watch the sunshine lighten up your eyes every morning.


If only I could climb the mountains with you,
and stand in the heavens by your side.


If only I could swim the oceans with you,
Just to battle the blue waves together.


Close your eyes, give me your hand,
and I'll hold it tight, leading us through life.


And I can't hold back the words any more,
I have to tell you everything today, tonight.


These feelings clinging to me so tight, tearing me apart inside.
For the love I hold, I just can't justify.

The Stars in your eyes

Illuminate my darkness,
brighten my nights,
dust my dark corners,
fill them with lights,
elevate my senses,
be my sunrise,
enliven my depths,
enlighten my skies,
shine light on my soul with the stars in your eyes...

- R

The beacon of my night

(This verse was written for another time, for another moment. But for some memories, time stops forever.)

Night after night,
Time stretches infinity,
Seconds turn into centuries,
And eyes see beyond reality.
"Come and take me,
Before I fall apart."
Before life drowns in a void,
Before you fall for someone else.
"Listen to my heart",
A cry of despair,
A dreaded end,
A desperate prayer.
Look into my eyes,
A timeless story remains untold,
A love that survives all wrong,
And a fire of passion burns all emotions.
I live in fantasies,
I dream you close,
Hold my hand O' Darlin',
And never let go.
Cuz' you're the light of my days,
the mist of my moonlight,
The glow outside my dark thoughts,
The Beacon of my night...

A drop of silence

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Clouds overshadow
Raindrops trickle
Lonely road
Wet pavements
Estranged thoughts
Forgotten memories
Young blood
First crush
Eye chemistry
Skipped heartbeat
First date
A dance in the rain
Happy laughter
A moment in time
First kiss
A future promised
Late night calls
Early morning messages
Confession of love
A weekend together
Sudden ring
Unfortunate accident
A rainy day
Black funeral
Broken heart
Bland future
Loveless marriage
A dead life
Echo of laughter
A lonely tear...

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Credits

Image - Window Rain Drops by Eric Alder
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Eternal Book of Thoughts

...and as the soft breeze whispers lightly through the night,
the pages of forgotten memories turn lightly on its music,
till they stop and lay open at a painful past...a past long gone,
a past of true longing and happy smiles,
of cheerful laughs and soft kisses,
a past where angels whispered words of love,
and where the violins played ever so in tune,
where the skies were so blue and the flowers so bright,
and eyes spoke what lips could never speak,
where two souls innocently became one,
and as the sun set over the horizon far away,
promises were made never to be broken,
But as the dancing breeze grows to howling winds,
the pages turn faster and quicker in fear,
the golden happiness fades to painful tears of regret,
and yellowed pages tell tales of horrified mistrusts,
of constant fights and broken beliefs,
of hearts that were selfishly shattered to tiny little pieces,
of clingy guilts and tough misunderstandings,
that turned merry chatter to deafening silences,
the long pauses that became less intimate,
and sad wistful thinking in the darkest of nights,
the sky became thunderous as black clouds overshadow the brightness,
and forlorn eyes looked for comfort in mirrors of smoke.
The wretched thoughts that rise up from the pages of this book,
stand for nothing but smudged scratches of ink,
and as the last page remains standing,
the book of memories closes finally to leave behind nothing,
but everlasting lonliness...

Perfect Man

Thoughts about you all day...

and deep onto the night,

feel your heart beating with mine,

so close and yet so far,

reminiscing the childhood laughs,

the naughtiness, the aloofness.

So young we were to have realised,

that one day...

it will more than just play,

when unspoken words,

would play tricks with the mind,

when a simple touch,would bring fire to the blood.

Oh baby, listen to me here,

the silence speaks volumes to be heard,

that even though it may seem so impossible,

i still want you so bad,

and even if you dont care enough,

i will make you see all that,

and no matter how high the wall in between,

i will have you one day,

because you are my perfect man.