Your Words

I look over the horizon,

The sun setting in it's glorious light. 

It reminds me of you,

Looking back at me with anger in your eyes.

Just as red as this sunset,

Just as warm as this summer breeze could get. 

How should I move on from you?

When I can still feel this connection between us two.

I'm holding on to a fantasy,

My sweet getaway in the face of this loathed reality.

But maybe it's not you, 

Just the thought of you that holds me back.

Holds me to your sensual words,

That were uttered in the light of emotions gone wreck.

Do you ever think of me as much?

Do you ever yearn the quick drop in heartbeat with a single touch?

It's not over yet,

Your words still haunt me when the night is dead.

Princess Diaries: 12 - Sweet Fate

Dear diary,

That day was an extraordinary day. Something happened that goes against the normality of life. Something that had me believe in fate again. 

For the longest time I've felt alone. Like I've been drifting through life with no anchor. Attaching myself to things that never really held me down. But then their exists some souls that pull you back. Pull you back and hold you down. And though there might be confusions and everything might be blurred, but in the end you face the reality. That bond is so much more stronger. There are things going beyond what we can ever imagine. How?...When? Why? 

Maybe it was that instinct right from the beginning that tugged at my heart constantly. Maybe it was the fantasy painted with vibrant colors, a mirage that melted my heart. Maybe he never left. 

But dear diary, what does it all mean? Is this a second chance at something that I've always wanted? Or is this a continuation to a story already happening? The second chapter? 

But I'm happy. It's like a part of me was lost, and I didn't even realize it. Just put it down to one of life's tragedies. And when I got it back, I bloomed again like a flower deprived. Although it lasted for few counted seconds, I got my light kiss of the rain. 

So I'll play this game. Wait for sunshine to take my name. And everyday when the sun goes down, I'll watch the colors merge into one another. Thinking that far beyond, you'll be watching those colors with thoughts of me and no other.

Yes dear diary. Fate is sweet sometimes. 😊

Etched

When I sat in that shadowed room. In the quiet of a dark moonless night. When nothing but a leaf stirred, and the breeze moaned tales of hearts asunder far and wide. When they pretended to be someone else. Laughter. Happy faces. Some so shy. Some just as high. Laughing with more happiness then ever. I laughed like I'd never stop. Laughed for all I was worth. And just like that my eyes moved to you. Sitting in the corner of another shadow. Your eyes dropped with more sleep than ever. So mysterious. So sexy. And that one moment, everything slowed to a stand still. Shadows darkened. Time stopped. The rest disappeared. Just you and me. Alone. Our eyes locked. And I saw you watch me. A slight smile of a lover. Exposed passion far gone. Watching me ever so intensely. Listening to my trinkets as it bounced off the walls. Feeling my laughter as it floated through you. Memorizing every line etching my face. Taking in that bright spark within my eyes. Fantasizing about that hair brushing ever so slightly before being flicked back in. Watching me like the rest don't matter. The rest don't exist. A chill moves up my spine. As I watch you watch me. Your eyes boring ice cold heat into me. Saying things that could never be said aloud. Imagining things that can never be as real. I felt my hands shake. I felt my heart drop. And just as that I teared my eyes away from yours. Too scared to jump into the deep well. Too frightened of the erratic beatings of my heart. And just as that, the lights come back on. And even in the brightness, I can feel your gaze lingering on my face. Kissing me ever so lightly. Tracing lines down my cheek bones. Close my eyes. But I feel you stronger.