Stronger

The hardest part about all this,

Was not leaving you to die a slow death,

But to realize at every passing breath,

how much you really meant to me.

The worst thing about me,

Is not having strength enough,

To turn around,

and run back into your arms,

Where I had found,

A precious sanctity away from all harms.

Let them hold me tight and strong,

Where I belong,

And the place where my soul was reborn.

But now I'm stuck here,

This airless corner of the cruel world,

And every second without you,

Has made me realize,

How big a mistake I made when I walked away.

For everything was so right,

When you were right here by,

And now I'm lying here all alone,

My soul almost dead and gone,

To think how I've been so very wrong,

To leave the only thing that ever lasted this long.

Infinity is you,

The only person I can ever belong to.

And I want to apologize,

For all the pain I caused,

And I wish the rain would wipe your tears away,

For I,

should have been stronger anyway.

Will I ever?

Today I lost an important person in my life. The more I tried to hold on to you, the more you shrugged my hands off. So I let go. How long should I struggle to hold you back? Because once someone told me 'Let go of the person you love, if it's meant to be he'll come back to you.' What if you don't? What if you never return?

 

That night I was a wreck. A mass of nerves, with a heart so heavy it would have dropped to my feet. The pain was unbearable. I couldn't focus. I couldn't sleep. To let go is the toughest. How could you let me go this easily?

But why should I blame you for this? No promises. No compromises. No future.

We all have it planned in our head. Three months from now and you'll be the happiest person alive. Does your past hit you then? No. You are happy. So you forget the people that never really meant anything to you in the first place.

But you meant the world to me. I lived by your words. And they keep coming back. 

Will you ever come back?

Will I ever get my kiss in the rain?