That's my new motto to life.
In a land crawling with hideous creatures that live on cheating and lying, you really need a plan B to fall back on.
My plan B is repeating this sentence over and over in my head till the impulse to kill passes. Atleast 20 times each day.
And then you ask what I do all day. Pfft.
For the last 8 years of my life, I've spent countless moments going under the constant torturing of wanting to slap sense into the stupid people of this country.
I've been emotionally blackmailed, my conscious raped, wronged and guilt tripped into doing what they have always wanted. No matter how wrong it was. No matter how much my conscious screamed at me to stop.
I've been in this constant heart/brain battle that has left me scarred in so many ways.
Revenge had become my mantra.
For taking my freedom away from me and trapping me in an endless loop of empty days.
For taking advantage of my innocence and emotions.
For ganging up on me and pushing me around, and laughing every time I fell.
I was filled with anger. Intense overflowing anger boiling in me for days and days. The more I suppressed it, the more it pulled me under. Till it finally let lose in torrents of tears and wailing.
A breakdown.
All that pushed me into deep corners of deafening silence. I stop talking, I lost interest. I got lost in my own thoughts. Depression. My biggest enemy.
I strayed from reality.
After a million days passed and till the scars deepened did I understand how to finally get myself back. How to be happy again.
It's very simple.
Forgive
Forget
And donot expect.
The day I started doing that I found peace.
I forgave people for the way they treated me. I forgot it ever happened. And in return I did good without expecting them to do the same in return.
I stopped caring about their happiness and started caring about mine.
I wouldn't say I'm 100% content and happy. No. I maybe around the mark of 53%. But that's something to start with.
Till the end becomes better.
